| Can I please get a 'FUCK YEAH'? |
[09 Sep 2006|01:13am] |
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Ok, how many of us ladies been lied to and lead on by males? I'm sure you or a friend have experienced this. We always ask: Why? Why hurt me this way? What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you? Why didn't you say you didn't want a relationship in the first place? The males replies are often sound like a forced apology or very casual and cold. We feel stupid for having feelings for the guys who rejected us. We hate ourselves 'cus sometimes we see it coming but we give them the 'benefit of the doubt'. The following is what we women should be practicing or not, your choice really:
We have to grow up and get real. What is with this race for love? Why are we in such a hurry to find that precious someone? We say we are not looking but our actions prove otherwise. We want our kings (or queens) and we want them NOW! Many believe we have no control over our emotions. That may be BUT we can control our actions when dealing with our emotions! Don't bathe in your own sadness forever! It seems like women LOVE doing that. Cry it out, then get up and move forward. Stop trying living in the past! It hurts! All the more reason to move forward. You are smarter now. You know their tricks and teases. Use them as warning signs and don't be afraid to break their hearts. It's all about trial and error. Hate to say it but it's true. So don't limit yourself! Explore! If tired rest for awhile and only awhile. LOVE YOURSELF! Cus nobody is going to love you if you don't start showing that you are the queen bitch. The men who hurt you are fucktards who don't know what they want. Do you really want to be with a guy who is clueless?
Who knows if you will have the True Love but a least you are learning to weed out all the assholes.
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| Let Go |
[15 Aug 2006|09:02pm] |
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I don't work for Utrecht anymore. I am sad, pissed, yet hopeful. Why am I hopeful? Cus I know I will get another job. It is the start of a new beginning.
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| "Why do girls date assholes?" Thee answer to this question and more! |
[10 Aug 2006|03:02pm] |
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Why do women date assholes? Thee answer is very simple. You "nice guys" don't seem to have the balls to ask a women you like out on a date. Do you fear rejection? I bet you do. Do you fear that she is out of your league? Hmmm? Have you given the thought that some women might LIKE dating assholes?
So what is the solution? It's very simple but it takes courage to do. Get her attention. What I call "love offerings" are the best. For example, you could buy her a drink or some flowers (guys don't hardly give flowers anymore); you can simply tell her she is so pretty you just had to introduce yourself. Just don't let her pass you by to be claimed in the arms of another asshole. True, you might be rejected one way or another BUT it will get easier. Don't forget some women will say yes.
Oh! By the way, try and keep and open mind. Some women won't want relationships. Some might just want a lover but who says that can't be fulfilling as well?
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| NIN and Utrecht |
[13 Jul 2006|05:42pm] |
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NIN was amazing! They rocked so hard! I was happy to be at their last show with my friends. I can't wait until his next tour!
Utrecht....
I think I'm going to get fired. The manager called me into the office and we had a lil' chat. Well it was more like a lecture. Megan (manager) told me again not to be so "excited and bubbly all the time". She wants me to be more "professional" (greeting EVERY person who walks in the door, no talking to co-workers, no talking to shoppers unless you are helping them). This was the fourth time she told me this. Basically, I should be less of myself. The thing is all my co-workers talk to each other all the time. They don't greet anyone who walks in (except Margo). They talk to friends who walk in too. It pisses me off that Megan doesn't see it, but I have to bite the bullet if I want to keep this job. I think my co-workers are good at hiding what they are doing from Megan. I should watch and learn from them and make sure Megan notices me actually doing my job.
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[30 Jun 2006|05:58pm] |
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Two days in a row...or was it? Nevermind. I like working at Utrecht. My coworkers are are my age and super cute. I'm learning patience and how to manipulate the masses. Working there made me realize how lazy, stupid, and rude people really are. But I am having fun at the same time. So give me money!
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| Feel So Good! |
[28 Jun 2006|08:38pm] |
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My god I feel so good! I have a part time job now and I took a Love Thy Self day (I'm not going into details about LTS). Keegan and I were chattin recently about Clinton and Bush Jr. Both are corrupt but why did Americans like Clinton so much? Keegan put it in perspective for me. Basically Bush Jr is like a Texan rapist who would steal your car after he was finished. Clinton though he fucked America over at least left a note and made us coffee when it was over.
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| Back from Fanime |
[29 May 2006|02:01pm] |
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Hey! I'm back! I had a wonderful time at Fanime. We had a bit of drama with the rooms though. Strangers were trying to get a free room on my watch but I sorted it out and made them pay extra cus they tried to give me the slip. I didn't watch much anime there instead I hung out in Artist Alley and the Gaming Room. I spent most of my cash on doujinshi (all translated), posters, and food. My friends and I want to have a table in Artist Alley next year. I feel inspired by all the artists that worked soooooo very hard to make beautiful illustrations. In the Gaming Room I watched people master DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) and ParaPara. I wanted to try it but then I found out we had to pay to play. That really pissed me off. So most of the time I chatted and cheered people on. The cosplay this year we so good! I seen so many of my favorite characters that quickly ran out of film. I'll be posting pictures when I develop the film. Next year I want to cosplay as The Count from Gankutsuou or movie Anthy (I still want to do that).
I can't wait for next year!
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[13 May 2006|08:16pm] |
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We are all lonely creatures.
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| FINALS! |
[11 May 2006|12:37am] |
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Yeah I know the drill...
Class is almost over! Summer will begin! Today was a very productive day. I got half of my illustration done; I applied for a job;and I saw the artist Brom's presentation! Brom is so sweet and silly. His wife is a very lucky lady...if only I met him first. But Brom would probably think I'm some psycho, drug using artist that has too much energy. Anyways the presentation was great up until Q&A. It;s time for the lazy, stupid, ass kissing students to have their time in the spotlight. The first question was (I KID' YOU NOT) 'What kind of pencil do you use?'.......
COME ON! What you want to buy the same pencil as Brom so you can draw like Brom? IT'S NOT THE PENCIL! IT'S THE PERSON USING THE PENCIL THAT MAKES A DRAWING GREAT! Someone asked how he painted AFTER Brom showed a demo of how he paints! Then you have the fandom questions like, 'What's your contact info so I can email you continually asking you for an apprenticeship?' and (my personal favorite) 'When are you going to work at our school?'. Jeez...I'm done.
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| Hmmmm |
[19 Apr 2006|12:15am] |
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I been thinking. I like smut. I like draw it, writing it, reading it. I want to make paintings of people fucking. Yup...I'm a perv.
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| Burning Up... |
[12 Apr 2006|01:24am] |
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 I can touch God... |
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I cut this entry cus I don't think everyone wants to read everything about me. If interested you can click the link and read on. I know what has been going on with me. I seem to be attracted to a few people for various reasons. Most of them I want to be sexual with. I get frustrated with myself. My friends tell me I should be happy cus I have a boyfriend to fulfill my desires. I shouldn't be so selfish. Am I selfish because I'm attracted to people who I'm not in a relationship with? Am I selfish for wanting to spend more time with them to get to know them? Am I selfish for wanting to kiss them or show any affection? I feel like a freak when I know I shouldn't.
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| It's been too long... |
[06 Mar 2006|08:16pm] |
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Updating is more and more troublesome. Anyways I finally brought my MAC after waiting two years. It is going to be shipped to me by the end of this week so I'll have it next week. I'm very excited! I don't have to my roommates computers anymore! Yet still I wait.
I'm going to install a few applications on my new Mac. World of Warcraft is the one I'm excited about the most and Photoshop. Anyone on WoW email me; let the questing begin! When people get new toys they become closeted for awhile. Well I'm not going to be trapped by my computer, my illustration homework will do that for me. Focus on the goal. I'm hoping to have some really good pieces. I'm also getting a DeviantArt account to get my work out there and I want to sell some prints too.
That's all folks.
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| V-Day for All |
[14 Feb 2006|07:54pm] |
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Love embraces all! Go out with friends town! Share the love!
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| Best day ever! |
[17 Jan 2006|10:07pm] |
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so god damn happy! |
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I spent today with Vickie and it was GREAT! It felt just like old times. We chatted about the past and present. Vickie wants to come and visit me this summer too. She really wants to met all of my friends. I'm so excited and happy to have her back in my life.
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| Happy New Year! |
[02 Jan 2006|12:26am] |
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Must make Katamari! |
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I know, I'm late. Last night was a strange night. I couldn't party with my Philly friend because my little brother Darren was having a party. My god, sooooo many people came! Darren must of invited 40 people. The party was on the third floor of our home which will be my little brother's bedroom (also includes bathroom, living room, and kitchen). All of his friends were wannabe thugs except my cousins who had to kick a few crushers out. Most of his friends remembered me and were happy to see me party with them. They were surprised when I lit up in front of them (so much grass) but the best part was when my cousins, Darren, and I smoked. It was truly a wonderful bonding expereince. Many of the guests vomited (what can I say, high schoolers...) and one guest pissed on the stairway. The party didn't end until 4am.
On a lighter note, I played We Love Katamari most of the day. I love Katamari! Harry Potter fever a hit my mother right on the head. She rented the Goblet of Fire on cassette and listen to it with me. I have to say...I liked it. It wasn't boring like the other books. I started reading book 6 cus I don't need filler...Things change, thank you Rowling.
YoruSoi is ninja girl love.
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| One of the BEST days ever! |
[28 Dec 2005|10:58pm] |
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Hey! Today I went to the Franklin Institute in downtown Philly to see the Gunther von Hagens' Body Worlds exhibit with my mom and Thyinia. It was great! I couldn't believe all the bodies and body parts were real, all preserved by plastination. The exhibit was very educational and creative. I wish they allowed photographs but I took some programs instead. It cost $21 dollars (that was the student discount) but it was worth it. I spent three hours looking at the all the bodies. My favorite was the pregnant female (you could see how the baby was placed inside of her and everything) and fetuses (can't believe we were all that tiny). Afterwords we all had hotdogs and soft pretzels.
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| XMAS MOTHERF**KERS |
[26 Dec 2005|12:23am] |
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Gimme some SEX! |
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Christmas was fun. I saw all of my family that I didn't see all year and ate tons of fattening foods. I drank glasses and glasses of wine and sake (I have to lay down afterwards). I'll be hanging out with my cousin Tiffany tomorrow, mostly shopping! I got some spending cash, slippers, and t-shirts as presents. My cousin Megan loved my sketchbook works, she was me to do a little work with her fashion friends. My mom wants me to get a deviant art account and decision on which Mac I want. I'm debating between the desktop G5 or 15inch laptop G4....I don't have a desk!!!!! Grrrrrr! Help! I'll probably end up taking the money, letting it sit until I get my loan check and then buying my computer. I'll be able to buy a decent one that will last about 3-4 years. World of Warcraft here I come! I miss my boyfriend...I'm horny...I miss my friends...I'm horny!
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[21 Dec 2005|12:36pm] |
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Well I'm back in Philly and things keep gettin' better and better. When I landed my father and Thyinia were there to greet me. My luggage ALMOST got shipped back to San Francisco. Holiday seasons are the worst. That night I caught up with my friend Jess and she told me that some of my friends (including herself)got pregnant! But Jess miscarried...I was sad and relieved at the same time. I'm going to be hanging out with them a lot. I also found out my old highschool is being shut down AND destroyed! That was very nice to hear. So stay tuned...
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| XMAS! |
[18 Dec 2005|02:59am] |
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Flick----FrouFrou |
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Hey...it's the holiday season!
I'm going home on Tuesday...I can't wait! My Grandmama fell and broke her femer, please wish her a fast recovery so she can bake me sugar cookies! Pray that no more of my cousins get pregnant. Adrian quit hitting on Tanith (this includes text messages and pointless phonecalling at mignight)...you have a girlfriend. Crushes kill the soul!
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[27 Oct 2005|03:26pm] |
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Come here and lick me! |
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I'm beginning to wonder why I don't blog enough... I don't even know if my friends still read my journal! Everyone I know is on MySpace. I really don't think it's that great but hey it aids in communication. Currently half of my semeter is finished and I'll be working on finals. My birthday is around the bend (22! LET"S FUN!) and I have been chasing females like crazy. I've been drawing a lot more on my free time mostly fan art of Bleach but I have been doing character sketchs of my original story I'm working on. I need to go back to the gym... And I have been playing Digital Devil Saga. It's has lots of mystery, murder, and mayhem as well as friendship and love. Tiff if you are reading this tell Orion I said, buy me rock candy! Strawberry flavored! Til' next time!
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